Since Matt and I got married, we always told ourselves we would wait about three years before starting our family. We both wanted to be done with school, and see where the next chapter of our lives took us. I think all along I always kind of knew we would never make it that long. :) Both of us can't wait to become parents, and I think even though waiting three years for a baby seemed ideal, we knew we would start when Heavenly Father told us to. Many of you may know of the struggles that one of my sisters has had with infertility and the trial that it has become in her life. I also have another sister who hasn't struggled in the fertility department. I always wondered where I would land once we started trying for a family, and worried that I too would have to work very hard to bring children into this world.
Back in October 2011, I went to see my OBGYN at the time, just for a regular check up. As the two of us talked, we discussed how birth control had kinda screwed up my system and some of the things I had been dealing with since going off birth control. I stopped taking birth control just a few months after Matt and I were married because it turned me into a crazy person. Even though I wasn't on the pill, we were still preventing and had not planned on getting pregnant any time soon. While at my appointment, my doctor talked to me about my chances of being able to have a baby. He told me that it would most likely be something I would struggle with. Due to my family history and many of the symptoms I have had, he was worried I wouldn't be able to get pregnant as easily as I would have hoped. In the moment of this all, I kinda brushed it off and just thought,"We will worry about it when it actually becomes an issue, there is no point in stressing about it now." After I got home, Matt and I talked about what the doctor had said, and we both agreed that we were not ready to start a family and that we would deal with the issue once the time came.
November 11, 2011 is a day I wont ever forget. Matt and I planned to go to the temple together for a date. We had no specific purpose in our attendance that night, only to go and do the lords work and enjoy a great evening together. :) That night as I sat through the session I was overwhelmed with an impression that there was a spirit waiting for us, and that now would be the time to start our family. My sister had been trying to get pregnant for close to two years, and I kept thinking,"This is for her, not for me.. not yet.." Again the very strong impression came that Matt and I would be starting our family. I was a little confused because it wasn't something we had seriously talked about doing yet, and with what we had learned one month earlier, I was completely taken by surprise. After the session ended and Matt and I sat in the Celestial Room, I couldn't ignore the feelings I had and knew that the spirit was softly but firmly whispering to me, that my time to become a mother was now. I decided I would keep this to myself unless Matt said something about it. I wanted some time for it to settle in and wanted to make sure I was feeling the right things. It was literally less than one minute after walking in the door to our home when Matt looked at me and said, "I think we are supposed to have a baby. It was all I could think about while in the temple." I knew at that very moment, we would be starting the next chapter of our lives.
We talked about how we were a little nervous to really take the plunge and start trying to get pregnant, but knew we couldn't ignore the promptings from the Holy Ghost. We decided we wouldn't start really trying to get pregnant, but just wouldn't be as careful and see what happened. We expected for this to take a while. It seemed like the perfect plan, we were headed in the right direction without having to really make the full on commitment. As the next couple weeks went on, my mood was changing and I was extremly tired. Matt and I both kept joking that I was pregnant, but didn't think it was even possible yet. Two weeks later on November 26, 2011 we found out we were indeed pregnant. As we looked at that little test, and saw the little pink plus sign, all we could do was hug eachother and cry. We were so excited and overwhelmed and honestly shocked at what we were really seeing. I dont know if I was already pregnant that night we were in the temple, or if it happened soon after... either way I know without a doubt, this baby was sent to us from a loving Heavenly Father who trusts us to raise one of his children and teach them all we can. This experience has brought Matt and I so much closer together. It has been the greatest thing that has ever happened to us, and we can't wait for our sweet little daughter to get here.